the ballards detest logic and calm reason
bacon vs st germain
state Saint Germain was Sir Francis Bacon in a previous life. Sir Francis is accredited
with delineating inductive reasoning to formulate modern Scientific Methodology,
hence heralding in the modern age of science and dispelling the world of Dark
Age superstition and ignorance, and fear driven obedience to the dictatorial power
of the Roman Catholic church.
Therefore, it is only consistent that Saint
Germain would vigorously advocate people rigorously investigate the truth of the
'Laws of Life' in the Ballard teachings.
Quite the contrary, the Ballards
aggressively and emphatically banned students from questioning their words by
threatening them with all sorts of scary scenarios about being cast out of God's
Light, or having all the positive effects of years of decrees reversed by the
slightest hint of doubt- pretty heavy stuff; a trick the Ballards must have known
helped the Catholic church in the middle ages. Me oh my, what would Sir Francis
have thought of the Ballards?
a glut of dictations
on the light & sound ray
Of the many Ascended Masters brought
to life by the Ballards in their delivery of over 3000 dictations via the Light
and Sound Ray, it is difficult to rationalize why these Masters all of a sudden,
with the death of Edna, decided mankind deserved not one further dictation.
Further, the concept that the Masters spoke to the Ballards on a light and
sound ray is perplexing. It is hard to imagine a more difficult thing than to
listen to a Master and at the same time try to voice what you hear. Try it yourself.
Get a friend to talk at you, while you try to repeat what he is saying. It eventually
The Saint Germain Foundation states the Masters have not
chosen to use other messengers since the Ballards because no one is strong enough
to carry the light as they did. If this is so, then one must query the claimed
potency of decrees to purify and strengthen I AM students.
It is even
more interesting that Don Ballard, being one of Saint Germain's three true accredited
messengers, could not continue dictating after his mother's death. Indeed, it
is amazing that someone with the divine attributes accredited Don by Saint Germain
could make a mistake like marrying a woman who would later divorce him. It is
even more amazing that Don resigned from the I AM Activity in 1957. Wow, when
the whole world depended on Don and only Don, he walks away.
money issue again
What is one to make of the Ballards drawing
wealth, not from Saint Germain's gold mines and sunken Spanish galleons, nor even
directly from the universal, but from 'love gifts' and book sales.
who paid for the Ballards to get through the drawn out and expensive mail fraud
trials? Once again, not the Ascended Masters. It was by large donations from students
who worked like you and me in normal jobs.
Why does the St Germain Foundation
after 70 years of decrees, still struggle financially? Why do they rely on so
much volunteer or poorly paid labour in their business pursuits?
when is an ascension an ascension? when the ballards say so.
The teachings state that one can raise their body into the Ascension without passing
through the change called death.
But in fact, the original I AM teaching,
from 1932-1939 stated the only way to ascend was to take the body up with you.
But after Guy Ballard died of cardiac arterial sclerosis, and failed to take his
body into the ascension in December 1939, Edna Ballard changed this law to state
that one could now actually ascend after the body died.
despite Edna's posthumous concocted cover up, most I AMers smelled a rat, and
left feeling conned.
The Encyclopaedia Britannica, who aren't known for
getting their facts wrong, puts it this way:
major reversal [in membership] occurred when Guy Ballard died on Dec. 29, 1939.
Mrs. Ballard had his body cremated and on Jan. 1, 1940, announced in a class that
Ballard had ascended and was now an Ascended Master. News of his death, however,
led many followers to leave the movement, since the Ballards had taught that the
ascension, the liberation forever from the physical body and from reincarnation,
would come without the experience of physical death." (1)
death of individuality
The Ballards said decrees could never
be created by students, that the only decrees sanctioned by the Masters were those
written by the Ballards.
I AM Students are not allowed to play music
in classes other than that sanctioned by those high and mighty ones who run the
St Germain foundation from Chicago. And these people were never chosen by Edna,
hence they cannot have St Germain's blessing, because he doesn't speak through
anyone else but the Ballards.
And don't let anyone convince you otherwise.
Over and over, the Ballards stated emphatically that the Masters would never use
anyone else as a messenger before they came to earth themselves. In fact, the
Ballards also said the Masters would appear to all mankind within their lifetime.
This is just another promise that never occurred.
So if anyone claims
they are receiving messages from the Masters, then they or the Ballards are lying.
Anyway, the point is, all these restrictions and rules started in
the 1930s and added to every decade, impose severe restraint on the expression
of individuality by Ballard followers.
There are four artists' impressions of Saint Germain sanctioned
by the I AM Activity. They look nothing alike, but all artists claim Saint Germain
posed for them. The earliest one is the most realistic and masculine, curiously
enough painted by a man, Charles Sindelar; while the latter three get progressively
more feminine and naive in style, and are curiously enough painted by a woman,
May DaCamara. So will the real Saint Germain please step forward.
must ask why there is a need for so many paintings. The Activity gives this explanation:
The original painting was never copyrighted by Sindelar. This allowed the rogue
splinter group, Summit Lighthouse, to use it in their meetings. Because Edna hated
Elizabeh Claire Prophet who was running that show, Edna wanted to have her own
special Saint Germain picture.
This would then allow Edna to say we have
the approved picture and Summit don't. To add an extra level of oomph to the argument,
Edna came out and said Saint Germain no longer radiates through the old picture
so all I AM students should dump it. Suppose it didn't hurt sales either.
In fact, the artists' impressions of all Masters in the I AM Activity are
pretty amazing. The face of each master possesses a certain flat generic quality
rarely seen outside a middle school art room. It is as if someone just learnt
how to paint angel faces, then applied a template when painting each Master. One
would be hard pressed to distinguish the faces of any two masters if the accompanying
clothing was blocked from view.
When you become an I AM student, there is a lof of talk about the need for protection
from a world full of discord and depravity. Students soon never leave the house
without giving decrees.
This negativity spills over into attitudes about
certain occupations. It seems Mrs. Ballard felt one would be hard pressed to avoid
soul destroying evil if they worked in the medical field (nurses included), psychology,
the defence forces, the police, television, the IRS.
It is strange the
Ballards felt a need to scare everyone with all the talk of entities and evil
out in the world. In doing so they contradict one of the fundamental premises
of the I AM movement: "one becomes what they place their attention on".
The Ballards would rarely remind their followers that God is more powerful than
The net effect of this imbalance was to fill I AM students with
so much fear they would have difficulty holding down a full time job in addition
to doing all the protection and purifying decrees necessary to keep one's energy
untouched by the world.
more than truth
Attendance at the big annual classes held at Shasta Springs has
decreased from ~800 in 1987 to ~400 in 2002. The Saint Germain Foundation
is very shy about releasing its membership number, but they should
know based on the sales of their monthly I AM Magazine, which all
good I AMers buy. The foundation does admit to there being 300 sanctuaries
in the world.
We have met students from many sanctuaries, and infer
the median average active membership per sanctuary to be less than 10. There is
a trend for new people to come in, try hard for a few years, get disillusioned
when their lives don't improve, then leave. This pattern just keeps repeating
through the years.
Anyone who needs to work in the real world soon finds
it difficult to make it along to the recommended 3 meetings a week. They also
become bored with the repetitive unchanging format of the classes, the same old
decrees, and the same old songs you'd never be proud to let your non I AM friends
If all that the Masters say in the books is true, then it is amazing
that the fate of the world rests in the hands of so few, and that more people
do not feel drawn to this most true teaching of God. It is also a telling sign
that the success of a sanctuary is usually related to the charisma of the group
real life for i am students
This section reveals some of the psychological trauma imposed on I AM students
by the Ballards and their perfect teachings. It also reveals overwhelming evidence
that decrees don't work in the emphatic way taught by the Ballards. And sadly,
confirms there is no other conclusion to draw other than the wealthier the Ballards
became off book sales and "love gifts", the more they believed their
disease disease disease
-Edna used to get very sore legs, and needed to have a good sit down and put her
legs up to ease the pain. So much for the body of Light.
-One of the
most devoted students of the movement until the 1980s, a man of high character
and much love, had a dense stroke (CVA) in his 50s, and ended up stuck in a nursing
home, unable to walk or talk.
-A dedicated and sincere student, with
60 years of decrees behind him, could not stop a deer tick from making him seriously
ill and cutting short his life.
I AM students do not outpicture the
Ballard promises of health and youth. Rather, they just get old and die like the
Ballards and everyone else. And we are putting $10,000 up to back our words.
ascended master racism
It was a rule, though disguised and
guarded, that Blacks were not allowed into I AM sanctuaries. This rule got changed
sometime in the 1980s when a white man became a student, and his black wife was
rejected when she tried to come. To avoid a major scandal in the press and courts,
The St Germain Foundation had to do some quick policy changes.
were also motivated monetarily, as the Foundation would lose its religious organization
tax exemption status if they didn't let in blacks. Proof the Saint Germain Foundation
are prepared to compromise on 'God's teachings" for the big buck, which further
supports the observation students don't have their hands on Ballard's limitless
Indeed, the whole racism thing is a sticky one for the Ascended
Masters. They would allow very dark skinned subcontinent Indians in, as well as
all Asians, Central and South Americans, and Pacific Islanders; but not African
Americans, even if they had a lighter skin color. Ascended Master policy regarding
half casts or African albinos was in the too hard basket.
teachings lead to psychiatric illness
We know of two dedicated
students from the early 1980s who suicided after becoming disturbed about failed
-A female student, after taking the Masters at their word that
I AM music could raise a person within days into the Ascension, decided to play
her piano non stop until she did Ascend. A few days later, her poor husband had
to watch broken heartedly as she became psychotic from sleep deprivation, and
needed placement in an asylum.
-A husband of a student had to put up
with her walking around with violet tinted glasses, saying he looked better in
the violet flame. The poor man was driven so disturbed, he grabbed a hand gun
and confronted the local I AM leader with the full intent of shooting him dead.
Just as he put the gun to the leader's head, he reflected momentarily and said,
"nah, I'm not going to kill you; trash like you aren't worth going to jail
-In 1979 in Melbourne, Australia, in a case that made national
headlines, an I AM student constructed a 12 foot high silver painted concrete
fence around his home to keep the sinister "outer world" from harming
his family. He also stopped sending his children to school and eventually stopped
them from leaving the home. Eventually, the eldest of the children escaped with
her siblings and went to the nearest police station. The media went into a feeding
frenzy, and savaged the I AM Activity relentlessly in the press and on television
for 2 weeks
-Many students were known to go and hang around on MT Shasta
and the Grand Tetons waiting for the Ascended Masters to open the doors and let
them in. Some of these students ended up in asylums, and one of them was known
to be struck dead by a car on his way home when he realized the Masters didn't
want to know him.
troubles with sex
-It would be fair to say that the rule of celibacy in the I AM Activity has been
responsible for an alarming number of divorces and marriage difficulties. This
is probably one of the areas of greatest damage by this movement. We are not saying
that sexual restraint, even celibacy, are bad in themselves. But we are making
the point that the Ballards were naive and mindless in using fear to motivate
people to practise celibacy.
In most Eastern religions, celibacy is
aspired to by monks, but ancient traditions there have a time proven graduated
path to celibacy, and a novice is always under the training of a more experienced
monk, who can compassionately guide the younger one.
None of this exists
in the I AM Activity. One is expected to go cold turkey. Eastern traditions also
believe it is foolish to attempt celibacy without some time within a monastery
away from the constant temptation in normal life.
-The Ballards once
again displayed gross hypocrisy, by preaching celibacy after they had reached
their 50s, and had a child. It is a lot easier at this age to practise.
-It is interesting too that the Ballards recommended their students strive not
to marry. Yet another example of do as I say, not as I do. Even Don, an accredited
Messenger, couldn't follow this advice. As is to be expected, there are very few
students who don't marry in the I AM. The financial and social benefits of marriage
are hard to deny.
-A sincere student of 10 years who devoted 5 years
of his life working for peanuts for the I AM movement at Shasta Springs was seriously
psychologically damaged after not getting results with his decrees and trying
to stay obedient to the movement's "100% student" celibacy rules. Disillusioned
and broken, he gradually became a deviant homosexual preying on the underprivileged
from third world countries.
-We personally know of at least three incidents where
cars occupied by two students, driving straight home from I AM classes, were involved
in car accidents. So it seems, even after giving all that service to life and
the Masters, the Masters cannot hang around long enough to see their loved ones
get safely home to bed. Furthermore, these crashes make a mockery of the Ballard
saying "where two or more of you are gathered, there is a Master present".
-A nice old couple with over 50 years of decrees behind them, were in a serious
car crash caused by the husband. His wife was killed instantly, and the other
driver was critically injured. The husband died the following day in hospital,
admitting the accident was his mistake before he died. Contrast the harsh horrible
reality of this with the flowery rhetoric and unlimited promises of the Masters
as channeled through the Ballards.
rely on the masters, not
-A student of 9 years who gave decrees
every day, when trying to get into his car outside his home, had a gun held to
his head, was forced to the ground, and was robbed of his wallet, watch, and new
SUV. All of this occurred while he was belting out decrees under his breath for
the Masters to come and help him. Apparently, there is never a Master around when
you really need one.
-Apparently the Ballards turned many of their early
disciples into emotionally challenged basket cases, because many of them began
mollycoddling Don Ballard, even into his twenties. Early I AM students say Don
became such a pathetic milksop, his Mum and Dad put him in the defence forces
to toughen him up.
This is all after the Ballards had decreed for years
that war was evil and the USA should stay out of WWII. But mind you, Mama wanted
her Don to be a handsome air force officer, not some schmuck grunt in the trenches.
Unfortunately, F.D. Roosevelt, who hated Edna, must have talked to the right Generals
and had Don put in the trenches where he apparently lost his nerve for the I AM
Activity. Seems the Ascended Masters can protect an officer better than an army
grunt, even if the grunt is one of their Beloved Messengers.
think Ma and Pa Ballard would have known an ounce of prevention is worth a pound
of cure; and stopped the mollycoddling before it started.
But I suppose
this fits with the Ballards encouraging their followers to refer to them as Beloved
Daddy and Mama Ballard.
Unfortunately, the Ballards said many things
and made I AM laws, like the ones below, effecting young people in a way real
caring Daddys and Mamas just plain wouldn't do.
-It is a rule of the
I AM Activity that people who have taken illicit drugs are not allowed into the
Sanctuaries. Indeed, Edna said many things to a young man who had once experimented
with drugs. Edna told him he could not make his ascension in this embodiment and
would never have success. The poor young man had been so disturbed by this he
felt he had nothing to live for, and was seriously considering suicide when last
But different sanctuaries have relaxed their policy on this as
new memberships have stagnated.
-Young student X, after being in the
I AM Activity for a year and never having made vows of celibacy, was banned from
his religion by the Group Leader when the leader was informed by another student
that Student X had dated a woman. There is nothing in the I AM books about dating
-It is a rule of the I AM Activity that students need
to attend an I AM sanctuary at least once every three weeks or their radiation
will decrease and they will be at the mercy of the sinister forces.
-However, if a student doesn't attend classes for three weeks, there is another
rule that students then cannot come back to the sanctuary until they go through
the 7 week Fundamentals Classes again. Obviously, the students are supposed to
fend off the sinister forces by themselves while waiting to get back into the
next fundamentals class, which might not occur for 10 months.
AM sanctuary leader banned a student for life because he had three periods of
not coming for three weeks in one year. Obviously some group leaders make up their
own rules as they go, depending on whether they like a person. It is hard to see
a loving God in any of this.
And then pity the poor I AM student who
lives in a town with no I AM Sanctuary.
-A student was so emotionally
disturbed by some of the fear tactics used in the I AM, that he lost all the hair
on his head and body at the age of 21. Twenty years later, he still has no hair.